Posts Tagged ‘hatemyself’
Mournin’!
Part of the problem is that you reach a plateau and think it is the summit. And as you sit there feeling satisfied, it finally dawns that there is further to go, more mountain to climb. This realization is devastating! It catapults me into depression and robs me of weeks of productivity because I just can’t fathom the idea of starting the struggle again.
But there is no solution but to set sights on the next stop and start on my way. I think I’ve had a week to mourn the fact that I’m not in the homeward stretch. There is such a long way to go and I just couldn’t face it for a while.
Post-doc applications are nearly complete, nothing now to do but what on the largess of the Canada Council to flow in my direction. Cross fingers.
